Being home I realized: I am not going to marry those guys. Yes, I like both of them, but we don't work. We never have. Neither of them are a good possibility. So I need to stop thinking about them. Just stop.
Leaving me with no real possibilities.
Yes, I can conjure up fantasies about that one guy in that one group who I am slightly attracted to.
But why? Why do I need to fill in that blank?
It's hard not to, but I think it's something that God is asking me to try. Will I really be able to succeed? I don't know.
That's my challenge. No fantasies. I'm addicted, and I know I can't do this on my own. But I am going to see what God might do.
About Me
- oldmaidblog
- Hi. You have found my secret blog. None of my friends know about this page, so I can write about personal things without them putting the pieces together. I think it's exciting. It might be stupid too, but why not? I am a single, conservative, Christian woman, trying to figure out life, and why I have to be human. This blog is more like my diary than anything else. I don't mind if you read it, but realize that it's just a sampling of thoughts.
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